Hi Alexis —
Thank you for sharing your situation —
I wish I could be of some use to you here, but I’m sorry to say I don’t think I can be —
I’m not qualified to give advice about anything other than these silly tests, and, more importantly, I think the questions you ask are ones that only you can answer for yourself.
I do think that the struggle with uncertainty is a necessary part of developing — I know that doesn’t make the situation any more pleasant, and it doesn’t meant you shouldn’t continue to seek more certainty, but I just figured I’d through that out there to say that I deal with the same types of struggles and sympathize with you —
Take care — Mike